Once again, I'm focused constantly on the negative only.

• I don't feel like I have a real role here.

• Nazieditorlady is usurping any control that I do have. She constantly emphasizes that she has more experience than I do and is always butting in on my jurisdiction. She's territorial about her own work, yet quick to pawn off her work on me at my busiest momements.

• I don't think our new VP is getting a very good sense of what I do here.

• I don't see any work that I'm qualified for in job listings and feel overlooked, underrecognized, unappreciated.

• I'm letting my boyfriend's super-diligence really get to me.

The last part I need to watch ... I'm way too grumpy with him, and he's the best thing going on in my life right now.

I'm going to start a new diary where I can play with fiction a bit, I think. Either that or I'm going to put it on my Web site. That way I can work on it wherever I am. And maybe read it as if it belongs to somebody else, so I can be objective about it.

I need to stop being negative.